bL- I do force myself to go out once a week. Usually when I get there I have a good time, it’s just getting myself there. Social work month is next month , and sine half our departments is social workers, our partners invite us all for fancy meals and happy hours a no expense to us. I get invited to the events from both hospitals and priority ze my other hospital, because I love my coworkers there . I have at minimum one event per week for the month of march. I am also going to Tampa in march , I can’t wait !
I can’t per diem as a main job because I need benefits, so that’s out . Travel nursing….. I don’t want to go back to the bedside, it’s been too long. I’ll probably become a remote case manager for an insurance company when I move, per diem in hospital to get me out of the house .
Sea hear now is on ! The lodging is what’s financially killing me! I think I’m buying a hit down there and putting it on AirBNB. I can quit my day job then.
Job- I appreciate your concern and you are right. It’s more stress than depression. My work situation [censored] me dry amongst my usual stressors. She takes ALOT to be able to handle all day. and it’s all the other stuff that has always been there for so long. At least at work I never felt so drained. I liked my other job and I knew it was a risk coming here, but I had to make a change for financial reasons and to pad my resume.
I still make time for the gym , twice a week, but it’s something . I NEED it . I can’t just say “screw it” around the house , because it just leaves me more work because I’m the one who will have to eventually tackle it. In the nice weather I like to make time for hiking and biking, but I don’t often because they are all day hobbies and I get stressed thinking about not getting stuff done. But I am making a promise to myself to make more time do these things because they do make me feel good.
I don’t want to end up in casket or really sick, that’s for sure. I workout, I eat healthy, I’ve lost a decent amount of weight. But I have to watch my mental health. I just wish I could have some help. Someone to share the burden with. Someone who doesn’t let me handle stuff alone. Because it gets super heavy.
But I will try my hardest to take better care of mental health, so it doesn’t start to affect my physical health
