Thanks Mike, I really value your advice and didn't for one minute think you were telling me what to do, just preparing me for how I might feel. The diet advice is really helpful. I'm not even managing one meal at the minute but drinking plenty of water & manage a hot chocolate every night. I'll look into the protein shakes. Its a good idea. At the start of this, I was thinking it would all be sorted in a couple of weeks. How naive! I remember DnJ saying I had the gift of time and I thought I don't want that gift, I need to know what's happening. Turns out I now value that gift and am not expecting any change for quite some time. I also acknowledge that my feelings may have changed by then, each day the lies kill me. It's the disrespect. This is definitely not the man I've spent the last 26 years with. Anyway, off for a walk with a friend now. D(16) has got all her friends round for pizza downstairs. S in his bedroom with wine & son is at the gym. I've arranged to meet a friend tomorrow afternoon for a coffee & D is going to do a pamper session with me in the morning. Let's see what tomorrow brings.
