DnJ - good advice about legal. My mum said the same thing. He has agreed to pay child maintenance.
Rockon - I feel each day gets a bit better and my mum said I sounded less in shock and calmer today when I spoke to her. I've arranged some IC through work and this will start next week.
He lied again last night and was with OW all night. We've spoke today. I was calm and he did admit to the affair. Said he felt so guilty and hadn't wanted to hurt me. I said he had hurt me and that I couldn't live with him under the same roof whilst he is sleeping with her one night and here the next. He has agreed to move out. He's also agreed not to stay overnight or lie about shifts till he goes. Said we'd drifted apart and it was his fault for not talking. I agreed but also said there were lots of things contributing but that the decision to have the affair was solely his. He agreed and said sorry and that he still loves me. Feels like a different kind of hurt because he clearly remains adamant that he does not want to try but I can see in his eyes that he still cares deeply. I'm fluctuating between sadness and strength today. Trying to stay in the present but those damn memories sneak in.
