Marching in limbo with MLC H (3)

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I will admit, H starting therapy does give me some hope. He's looking within. That said, I'm trying not to have any expectations. So, I'm telling myself that if the fog ever starts to clear, it could take a while, and even so, it might not mean that he wants to R. His therapist might even validate his decision to blow up his life, who knows. I can't control any of this. I'm still moving forward as if I am already D'ed. I'm making plans that would make moving back to Country B any time soon kinda difficult.

I have another very social weekend ahead. It's amazing how much better I feel now. I'm in such a different place than I was just a month ago. There's still sadness and anxiety in the background, but most of the time I'm able to take pleasure in things. GAL, exercise, meditation, and ADs are working.

I'm so glad you're doing better! This forum has really the best advice in the world. You ultimately learn how much DBing is really just for you. We initially come here looking for ways to reconcile, ultimately realizing reconciliation is just a bonus to our journey of self discovery and regaining our worth.

I agree with BL42, ultimately you may not even want to R if H ever leaves the fog. FWIW my ex has been in IC since BD#1 and I don't think she's doing him any favors, so agree completely with you not having expectations as validation is certainly a possibility. Regardless, he can do his thing and you're doing yours and doing an amazing job, keep it up!

Hope the anemia is better! Iron deficiency is awful and isn't taken seriously enough by MDs IMO.