Sending you love, Eagle.

I don't want to offer any perspective, just a hug, and support for your desire to keep your heart open.

None of us can predict what your H will do now or in the future.

I think you have been through enough that you could ask yourself this:

Would I be okay with everything that is happening in this moment if I knew H was going to leave again, and this was a false start?

The answer to that could be a guide for you for your own choices.

What you are undertaking is as impossible as surviving the MLC in the first place. You did that, and now what you are doing may end with redemption or be a false start. All you can do is decide what you want to do given that uncertainty moment by moment.

You are an amazing person, that much is clear. And I mean that on a deeper soul level and also just because you seem like someone who would be great to have as a neighbor-friend. You are funny and kind and fun and open-hearted. Gros bisous!

Last edited by Gerda; 02/12/23 03:27 AM.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord with courage.
Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.