Marching in limbo with MLC H (3)

[marching]

I ended up not asking DB coach how to respond to this particular message and applied the general principle of "be a friend and also a little mysterious." So, I simply wrote, "I'm glad you're taking care of yourself."

I can see that H read the message. He has not replied. I have a feeling he'll reach out again in the near future.

I will admit, H starting therapy does give me some hope. He's looking within. That said, I'm trying not to have any expectations. So, I'm telling myself that if the fog ever starts to clear, it could take a while, and even so, it might not mean that he wants to R. His therapist might even validate his decision to blow up his life, who knows. I can't control any of this. I'm still moving forward as if I am already D'ed. I'm making plans that would make moving back to Country B any time soon kinda difficult.

I have another very social weekend ahead. It's amazing how much better I feel now. I'm in such a different place than I was just a month ago. There's still sadness and anxiety in the background, but most of the time I'm able to take pleasure in things. GAL, exercise, meditation, and ADs are working.