I've no idea how you do the fancy boxes quoting text but thank you BL42, I found your comments honestly and helpful. In terms of the is he an alcoholic question, I would say he's a functioning alcoholic. He gets up for work but drinks every day around 1-2 bottles of wine despite it upsetting me & the kids. Lots of past arguments about this & lots of failed promises to change. A little bit of gaslighting too where he told me the lack of sex was the reason he drank (also one of the reasons for the lack of sex). I'm slowly remembering the negative stuff in the relationship. It's funny isn't it how H seems biased to remembering the bad stuff and I've seemed bias towards the good stuff! Anyway, your words helped me a lot today and I certainly feel stronger now than when I posted.
