I wasn’t honest with myself about myself before. In so many ways, I paid attention to others, serving their needs, worrying about them (W’s emotions, her mental and physical health, our kids special needs and significant traumas we have sustained as a family and the massive needs in my line of work).
I didn’t take care of myself for me or to have masculine power. I zoned out and didn’t pay attention to being attractive and having mystery and excitement in our M.
This is something I don’t like about before that I am confronting. Boundaries, healthy individuation/separation. What and who I need to be.
I am not abandoning the positive character traits of kindness and compassion but I need to be strong to lead and be healthy. And I’m doing all of that.
