I do experience ill will, dark thoughts and temptation to seek retribution, judgment etc towards W, especially towards OM and at times directed at myself. I encounter temptations to act out. But these things are not what I want nor where I want to go.
It is exhausting for sure! Her having a BF certainly does not work for me and she knows. I have made that clear and in my estimation I don’t have anything more to say to her at this stage. That behaviour does not have my support or endorsement.
Well if she knows then she doesn’t care what you feel about it or knows you would do anything about it. What does this say about the person you are trying so desperately to keep in your life? Remember respect equals attraction disrespect equals repulsion.
