I do experience ill will, dark thoughts and temptation to seek retribution, judgment etc towards W, especially towards OM and at times directed at myself. I encounter temptations to act out. But these things are not what I want nor where I want to go.
It is exhausting for sure! Her having a BF certainly does not work for me and she knows. I have made that clear and in my estimation I don’t have anything more to say to her at this stage. That behaviour does not have my support or endorsement.
