Newbie and needing help please

[DnJ]

M,

I just want the hurt and ball of anxiety in my stomach to go.

(((Hug)))

Day by day, hour by hour, and in the really bad moments - minute by minute. You will make it.

I know I need to go for a walk and get some fresh air & that would be the best thing for me.

Let’s go.

I know I’m not there. So how about you tell me of your walk. The tress, the grass or snow depending where you live. How many red cars did you see?

I see your first post was 3:30 am my local time. I’m guessing it could be night where you are right now. Might not be the best time for a stroll out in the dark. Won’t see many red cars.

Perhaps it’s late afternoon or evening there. That’s a good time for a stroll and some fresh air.

I live on a ten acre property in the country with a lane that is 1400 feet long. My closest neighbour (I’ve only got two) is across and down the main road which puts them around 1/2 mile away. The town of 600 or so souls is a little further down that main road, so pretty secluded and quiet around here.

About five acres of my lot is wooded forest which is the half that faces town. In the open grass area are several old large cottonwood trees from back when the town was founded over 150 years ago. These are over a hundred feet tall with a crown of limbs and branches that is huge. It takes three adults with hands joined to wreath the trunk of these towers. I found a lot of peace standing/sitting underneath these giants and looking upward towards creation. Be it the mottled sunlight streaming through the branches or the pinpricks of starlight in the inky velvet black of the night sky.

Answers present themselves when one is calm and still and at peace. It took me a while (months) to detach enough to start to see and hear such internal answers and direction.

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