Dinner went well. I was always positive and shining, she was showing positive emotions as well. We even laughed a couple of times, discussed memories and briefly touched our relationship. She even agreed and confirmed that all of our problems could be fixed. But she is not willing to put in the effort / she is afraid that nothing will change.
We ended it on a good note.
Now, this week is complete opposite. I called her once and she was angry and mad at me. Even in our small communication I felt her want to push me as far away as possible. I could say that her voice tone, words and actions changed dramatically since last week.
Yet, this is not the first time. Sometimes she is writing positive messages with smiles, sometimes its completely opposite and no real response/avoidance. As if its two different persons, on two different occasions. Sometimes she is asking how I am doing with curious and deep questions, sometimes she is trying to show that she does not care.
These days I am just trying to be positive and maintain calm in our communication.
She seems sad and completely tired of everything. At first it was only me, now she is saying similar things about her job as well. Perhaps she just wants to "quit" her current life and build a better tomorrow.
