Hey guys. I agree. I don’t believe the anger has fully surfaced. But just now as I was driving it was palpable. I was angry at her and her disrespect and unfaithfulness. I felt it recognized it acknowledged it and let it crest a little. Started to have my vision blur juuuust a bit as I considered the loser (Om) and what I wanted to do to him / then imagined him being afraid of me and my focus strength and determination. I was over in the slow lane and ready to pull over if I needed. Started to slow my breathing and just breathe through the pain that took the place of the anger. I felt deep heartache for the rejection I felt from W (different from the anger at the disrespect it related).
Got home and took some really deep breaths. Did a couple chores and worked out. Then had a releasing cry and I’m ok for not. Thought about what I want to show/ model / share with kids. They didnt witness any of this episode but I have been appropriately honest (with healthy boundaries) with them in doses about how I’m doing and what I’m going through and what I’m doing about it.
