You do not appear to be angry that your wife is cheating on you (or dumped you) or whatever label we want to put on it. Have you went through the anger stage? Most of us have repressed anger that needs to come out. BD is a good trigger for most of us.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712