AD drowsiness + GAL + work have kept me from posting for a bit. I guess the combination of these three things have pretty effectively blunted a lot of the emotions that had me spiraling over a week ago.
As for communication with H, I did respond after a few days. I said I'm also open to talking. Didn't ask any questions or share any of my feelings. No response from H as of yet.
BL42 you make a good point about considering limiting the chit chat to facilitate detachment. I actually felt fine during the conversation and only felt the disequilibrium a day or so later. I'm figuring it out as I go along. The only hard rule I have is to not initiate. I see how things go the next time H and I have an interaction.
Not much else to report. Spending a lot of time with friends and trying to not think about the future too much.
Hi Marching! Glad you checked in. I was wondering how you were.
The emotional turmoil seeing him/talking to him will churn up will lessen with time. So glad you're GAL. Don't worry about the future - there's no way to know what will happen, so worrying is useless. (Easier said than done). FWIW I predict a really healthy happy future for you, and it seems like most on the board do too based on the responses you get
Focus on you, try to work out as much as you can to help your mental health. You got this.
