Dave and busters was a bust, we went too early and it was all little kids so they wanted to leave. It’s attached to the mall so that’s what they did. Apparently some kid asked my daughter for her snap. She was online for a pretzel and didn’t even realize what happened. Apparently, that is the equivalent of asking for the digits. Props to the boy who went for it! My daughter will be 15 this year, never had a boyfriend, no first kiss, none of that. The pickins are definitely slim in her school .she is not boy crazy at all, I do encourage her to talk to the opposite sex. The boy that is her friend is transgender, lol. He’s such a nice smart kid and helps my D all the time with honors geometry. He also steals her phone and texts me .
It turns out her sweet 16 is practically a party for ex’s side of the family. He’s inviting like 20 people ! She’s inviting 17. I’m inviting maybe 7. And of course we are splitting it down the middle . Whatever. Sometimes I get down that it’s another event I don’t have “my person” by my side and I fly solo. I’m used to it for sure, considering I have never had a significant other for such events. But it would be nice to have my support person.
Work was really tough last week. It’s my first time doing performance evals and it’s for 27 people. I was cramming them. It was a nice opportunity to meet with them 1 on 1. But I was literally working 10 hour days and working even when I got home. I got my performance evaluation, which was as expected because I’m new to the position. It’s raise worthy yes, but in 4 months, naturally I have room to improve. She did tell me I’m doing great, gave me positive feedback and areas she would like to see me grow. Fair enough.
I am actually struggling a little bit there. It has to do with my counterpart and probably my own insecurities. We get along just fine, but her personality grates me . She has followed my boss everywhere for years. They know eachother well. I got the first position she got the second one when it became available. She always has something to prove. She loud, she’s very extra, she talks over everyone, she needs to have her story heard ALL THE TIME. If you say something about someone else or something else, it becomes about her every single time. Even when we discuss patients! I have personality for sure, but I am a listener. I’m very chill as well. Certain employees have gravitated towards her because of how extra over the top she is and she is a personality in your face. Others have gravitated towards me because she is too much, probably. She gets stressed easily though, I do not.
I feel like I have to be more like her because she is just so in your face. It’s pretty fake to me, because I can see through that. But yes, it’s the first time I feel kind of “threatened” and I don’t like it.
I also miss my former office mate so much. I trusted her so much, I loved spending time with her. We listened to eachother, we felt comfortable with eachother. This one, I just don’t even want to share with her. One time I did and one sentence in, it became a story about her . I’m done with that.
That’s my journal for the week. I’m feeling a little off. Maybe disconnected from people. I took next Tuesday off to have a spa day with my bestie. . I feel like myself around her. Truth is, I don’t feel safe being myself around many people.
