Congrats on the promotion! That's gotta be a boost.
Hope you're crushing it on the elliptical right now.
You've been in a sexless marriage for a decade. Time to not accept that anymore. I completely understand the feeling of wanting to fix your marriage and keep your family together, and I hope that happens for you, but if it does you can't go back into the same situation. And I hope your fear subsides because if it doesn't, you'll find a relationship that is much more rewarding than the one you have at the present.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21