My wife says she is done

[Dats000]

So let me ask you....

If I were to ask you to pinpoint your fear, what would you say they are ???

Being Divorced ??

Being alone ??

Single Dad ??

The perception of you being Divorced ???

What is it exactly, that scares you so much ?

I'm pretty sure that if were to ask you a few months ago what your fears were, you would have said that your worst fear was something like this happening....

Yet it has, and you are still here, and you are still functioning....

I’m writing you this now in the morning when I am most fearful and my anxiety is its highest. When I’m done with this, I will be going on our elliptical machine and getting getting rid of most that anxiety. So being alone is huge as far as a fear. Before I got married, I didn’t have a serious relationship for most of my 20s. I’ve been in auto pilot for the last 15 years in this marriage, and just doing stuff for my kids for the last 12 years. Guessing that loneliness is one of the big reasons why I married. I am reading the six pillars of self-confidence. I’ve only gotten to the first pillar, which is consciousness and it’s already been a huge eye-opening learning. My IC recommended that I read it. I got to make sure I am in the right mindset to be the best for my kids. Another fear is my kids getting through this without a lot of hardship. Financially, I think I can keep the house but in reality I don’t know. If I have to sell the house where am I going to live? The unknown is a top fear. Being a single dad, not too fearful since my kids and I have the best time together when my wife’s not around. Even though I was just told that I got a promotion which should make me happy but right now it helps a little. I do get fearful of losing my job and not being able to find another one comparable to it. my industry is a unique niche where there’s not a lot of jobs out there. but I’ve had a job since college so it’s been fine so far.

I got to tell you this form and its people are just wonderful. I needed the encouragement so bad yesterday and I got immediate responses that helped me pick myself up.