W told me this morning that she got the place to live that she has been looking at. This was right before she left with S12 out of town for the weekend. She said that we should tell the kids when she gets home. Now I sit here by myself just feeling rotten. Mostly because knowing that the children will know soon (probably already have a good idea) and the fear of what is ahead of me in my new life that I wasn’t asking for.
As bad as this sukcs right now....
It really doesn't have to.
You need to feel this, and let it fuel your future.
Her moving out doesn't mean the end, it just means it's the end for now.
So DBing, there is a reason for GAL, and fake it till you make it....
I would suggest trying to implement those. It's hard AF Dats...
Yet you are gonna have to force yourself out of this by doing something for yourself, and the kids.
Do something different, try something different, and eventually, you will BE something different.
Different moods, different frame of mind...
Telling the kids is hard. No lie about it...
Them not having you as a sound, reasonable Father is harder....
Choose your hard...
You WILL get through this, no matter how it looks or how it plays out...
You get to choose how you get through it....
So let me ask you....
If I were to ask you to pinpoint your fear, what would you say they are ???
Being Divorced ??
Being alone ??
Single Dad ??
The perception of you being Divorced ???
What is it exactly, that scares you so much ?
I'm pretty sure that if were to ask you a few months ago what your fears were, you would have said that your worst fear was something like this happening....
Yet it has, and you are still here, and you are still functioning....
They say that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.....and none of this has killed you yet...
Find that strength Dats...
Face those fears and you may even surprise yourself at how you are gonna rock this....
This might be the end for now, yet it doesn't mean that it's final....
You will eventually be in another relationship again. and it could quite possibly be with your current spouse....
Never say never.....
For today though....chin up and find YOUR way through it....
