Going dark feels like pressure

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He texted me the apartment is approved. And that he doesn’t want to hurt me but this (ow) is really what he wants.
Of course it hurts, but I know it’s what he thinks right now and the process he has to go through. But I wish I could skip this and move forward to the moment he does wake up from the fog.

I know you want to hear that I’ve been doing things for me, i did I’m still on holiday doing hikes and swimming etc and made plans to do some repair at the house when i get back.

About a week ago when he told me about the apartment we talked and he said I might wake up from this fog and regret. He said i need the apartment to be away from the house, the dog and you alle the things that cost me a lot of stress. He wants to work on his medical issues and he thinks that is when he maybe will have the energy to deal with ending the A etc. Of course now he’s with her he believes this is it, I don’t believe that this is it. I expected that he would be in this mindset, but I didn’t expect him to reach out to me so much, texting about what he is doing. Also read on this board reaching out doesn’t mean anything. Maybe I am to negative, but could this mean that he is not in the fog and that this r with ow is the real thing? Then why does he reach out to me, just to keep me as a friend? Sorry really need a bit of reassurance that I just need to be patient and keep gal, and that I’m right that things still could work out, in the long run.