when I come to this board, LH gets me fired up about how much better my life will be if I move on from W, DnJ brings me back to earth with his Gandhi-like wisdom and calls for empathy, and Ready2change makes me want to shove W's dresser out of the master bedroom in exchange for a spitoon and a Hugh Hefner smoking jacket.
This reminded me of The Two Wolves (I shared it if you’re not familiar with the parable). Which wolf you feeding?
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Thanks for chiming in, DnJ. I'm not really in a good place with things. I wish I were going home to a house in which W would be somewhere else. I have a hard time conjuring up feelings of empathy towards W in light of what's going on.
I would certainly like to feed the compassion and kindness wolf but it's proving more difficult these days.
I'm trying to latch onto LH's oft-repeated line about "You won't always feel this way" but I imagine I may have to do the heavy lifting after W gets a better job unless it turns out she's somehow motivated to do it herself (heavy lifting = setting D in motion). I'm a little disappointed in myself for not being better at this point at "dropping the rope" but I feel like I'm being too lenient with this waywardness.
FWIW, I'm taking sex off the table. I don't know if there's any point seeing that W has to traverse this landscape of MLC herself. There's a little segment in DR from the chapter on infidelity called "When S/he Won't End the Affair." I certainly question why I'm putting up with it.
