Going dark feels like pressure

[Bat]

Well I know this is how I communicate, focus on the negative. This was an issue jn our r, I realised this recently. Talking about positive things feels like showing of to me, but I have to learn to talk about that.
I’m also on holiday, i go out for walks, go out for meals and coffee, did several yoga classes, cooking class and art class. And of course relax, read, watch series on my phone and go swimming. Not to much sightseeing because I’ve been to this destination before but will do a trip to the mountains in upcoming days.
At home I go to the gym, walk with and without the dog, do a webdesign course. So lots of things.

And to be completely honest, I do think we will be happy again, bit not with him dropping ow and falling back in my arms, I know it’s not that easy. Maybe I also focus on the negative with this story and H looks like this selfish person. But this is the first time he has ever done something selfish in his life. I’ve been reading on the mlc forum and read about spouses having crisis back to back. This sounds familiar, I haven’t been easy to live with for years.