You didn't do anything wrong. We're just concerned about your thought process with H in terms of hoping he has a baby with OW and then comes back to you. Also concerned you don't seem to have a support system outside of H.
Originally Posted by Bat
I did have IC for about a year, ending with a diagnosis. This made me more depressed and I stopped. The diagnosis and BD 1 were about the same time.
What was the diagnosis? Have you considered starting back up with IC, even if it's a different counselor?
Originally Posted by Bat
The fact that I don’t have friends doesn’t mean I sit around waiting for him to come home.
If you don't have friends, do you have family? Anyone on whom you can rely on support in this incredibly difficult situation?
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21