I think you may want to do more than one Alanon meeting weekly ... check out the online meetings and zoom/telephone meetings.

Remember, you can't control this, didn't cause it and can't change it.

BUT you can do a lot to make it worse.

So don't. Focus on you. Drop the rope. When you don't think you can, Drop it anyway. Focus on yourself and the kids.

You didn't feel anything when she talked about two OM because your mind and heart are trying to protect you from more hurt. It's a natural response.

If anyone moves out, make it be her. Keep the kids in their routine if at all possible.

She has to truly hit a bottom before there's any hope. You know this.

Hope this helps.

xoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver