Hey all, Long time since last post. Ended up doing the ride home together which was ok. She stayed on her headphones and we didn’t talk much. We picked up the car from the airport the next day and this is when I picked the rope back up. Shows my weakness. I have to stay stronger, she started talking and I talked back. We ended up kissing at the airport. She told me how much she enjoyed it and it fired those engines back up. Such a mistake. She texts me she blocked the guy she was talking to and started trying to show affection. My daughters and sim were around this entire week and GAL has been hard. She started texting the OM last night again and ended up admitting it. I have to start this all over again due to my weakness. Might be too late at this point. I have felt so weak this last week and needed to put it out there, I’ve been dreading the post. Need to hold myself to account.
I have my rescheduled L appointment on the 11th with a call into another one to see if can get sooner. I have been working my program, starting Step 8, I also have had 2 coaching sessions with my life coach. This has been good his opinion is to get out of the marriage. I also start Krav Maga classes this week which will give me something to do in the evenings. My biggest struggle is finding evening activities and being too accessible to her.
I hope everyone had a great holiday and happy new year!
