…… and we all ended up in Las Vegas together in 2012 ( him, on a conference, me and my girlfriends for fun) …. We all had dinner together and met his colleagues. No hanky panky!
As for some self realization. I realize why I chose unavailable men. They are safe. I already know how it’s going to end as in, it’s definitely going to end. Knowing the end is SAFE to me. The two times I was not in that situation ( my marriage and M ) I was blindsided . I didn’t see an end and when it came, it broke my soul a bit. So I date people where I know there is no other way than it ending. No surprises and I’m prepared.
So for this year, I decided not be afraid anymore. Not be afraid of something that could actually be good and lasting. And not be afraid of it ending. I haven’t opened myself up to it since M. I legit thought we were going to build a life together. While I always handle a breakup with dignity and grace and simply move on , a scar is usually left behind that goes pretty deep. I decided it’s time to heal that.
And I’m actually looking forward to it. It’s my bravery for the year
