I basically went to bed at 10pm last night . D woke me up and FaceTimed me for the new year. I am working today. Last night was a little rough , I was a little lonely, but I got through it. During the day I went to the gym , went out for lunch D and aggressively cleaned my bedroom. I’m a party animal, I know. Next Saturday my friend and I are going out for a doctor friends birthday. He insists on paying, even for his own birthday. And is getting us ( my friend and I ) a hotel room so we don’t have to drive. That will be my big night out .
I had my first first date since august last Thursday. I have been off all the apps ever since. The only one I never deleted was facebook dating ( don’t even know how to delete it) but I never used it because of wacky far away matches. I opened it up out of boredom . There was this guy with such a great and normal profile. Good looking guy. I was shocked at his age, he’s 55, but looks early 40’s. We connected and made a date. He has custody of his 14 and 15 year old sons. His ex wife over back to FL a few years ago. They have been divorced 6 years. His kids visit mom for holidays and breaks and the such. Through conversation, he never once had to say “my kids are my priority” he just has to speak about them and he is a normal every day parent who loves his kids and is doing a great job raising them. He said women in his age range usually run when he says his kids ages . He says “my kids are teens, they can stay home alone even overnight” he does make time to date. We do want the same things relationship wise. We had a nice talk about it. We are in very similar places in our lives.
There were no “sparks” but definitely a level of attraction for me. He did tell me I am even more gorgeous in person and he asked for a second date on the first date. He asked in the parking lot if he could hug me and I said yes. I think he was testing the waters and was being respectful and said “ I would ask for a kiss, but I don’t want to make it awkward” we didn’t kiss, but I hope if the second date goes well, he goes for it.
If anything, this date lessened my fear of dating. I actually got scared. Scared of the nutso people. It was nice to know even if this doesn’t get past date 2, there are men left who aren’t pervs, aren’t looking to get right into my bed, and aren’t in the im FREEEEEEEEE!!!!!! Mentality.
