I'm also trying to visualize my new life. How I will decorate my new apartment once I eventually find it. The pets I will adopt. The freedom of not being tied to Country B (or Country C or wherever H's escapist fantasies might lead him), because I can follow my career anywhere.
Someone new might come into my life. That person will be amazing, because I won't settle for less. Oh, he will be an imperfect human, of course, but he will have the strength to weather life's storms with me, to work through tough times together.
