Please start a new thread and link your threads together.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Thanks also to everyone for chiming in about the friendzone thing. Fortunately (unfortunately), there is no risk of friendzoning anytime soon. H and I are nowhere near friendship right now, as you will see in the next update.