DnJ, BL42, and R2C, thank you so much for the encouragement. The wise words about letting go of control, taking things as they come, staying in the present, and treating this as an opportunity sink a little deeper each time I hear them.
Rockon, I'm really sorry that Saturday night was so rough for you. I hope the good days will eventually outnumber the bad. Please keep taking care of yourself.
Newborn, I'm glad to hear that your little guy is doing well! Amazing that he's already trying to read books! Mimicking the main character when they yell—that's adorable! I appreciate your kind words so much. You absolutely hit the mark—I'm working on overcoming feelings of guilt and building up my self-esteem. I could have been more attentive to H's mounting unhappiness. But of course it's so easy to see the signs in hindsight. And I couldn't have and can't fix him. In any case, although I'm not perfect, I know I was good partner. You're right, on the off chance that H ever comes around, he'll be the one to have to prove that he deserves me! So far he's only expressed guilt and not genuine remorse.
