My few single friends have big families and I don’t know anyone in my situation
That doesn't stop you from starting an annual holiday party tradition, perhaps the week before Xmas.
It doesn’t. But it isn’t my thing. And it’s a busy week for me. Work holiday dinner tonight, last min shopping, etc. honestly, it would probably stress me out more. And if I thought it really would make me feel better, I would. But it would stress me out up until the moment ( I hate planning get together, but I love attending them). It would feel better during the event, and then go back to how I felt. Because it’s deep and visceral. My feelings aren’t fleeting or superficial. I feel this to my core sadly. I just learn to live with it.
Friends from my old job and I next Wednesday are going out for happy hour. Everyone is busy this week, so it would have never worked.
And trust me, it’s more than just having a boyfriend. I think when we marry we build a family. When we date , we get brought into a family. My best Christmas Eve I didn’t have my kid was the one with M. Not just because I had him. Because that was the night I met his family. I had dinner with his brother and sister in law and mother. We had such a great time. I felt loved and accepted. Not isolated and lonely. The loved and accepted and a part of a family. And that’s what goes deep.
