Update for the day. We set up a schedule for the week on who gets what night and the day was pretty uneventful with work and up until dinner. After I ate I was heading to my meeting and told S6 if I didn’t see him before bed, That I loved him and from the other room I hear her say, you aren’t going to be home for his bedtime? I said I’m not sure, but its my night out. That we just did the schedule today. She said that she was planning on going to the 8:00 meeting and thought the night schedule was for meetings. I repeated that we just set the schedule up today and it’s my night. I then hear her throwing things of the dinner table. I wasn’t surprised by the reaction at this point but still don’t understand since her meeting is only an hour long. She would have been able to be home by 9:15 at the latest to get S6 asleep, or had my daughters D19, D16 who she was using to babysit but him in bed. She was yelling at me and I did slip and say you are gone every night, but realized quickly and just walked out the door and left. On way to the meeting my Ring starts going crazy and it’s her outside burning stuff again. Normally I would have stayed and fought or come home and try to prevent the burning. When I get these reactions, I do feel guilt. I question if I’m doing the right thing. I did text both my daughters to make sure S6 was ok, she wasn’t around him at all, which again is crazy to me.
I texted D16 after the meeting to check in and she said W was not there. So I did come home after the meeting to make sure S6 was good and had some support. I hate this [censored]. I asked D18 if her mom talked to S6 at all and she said know. Said she walked around cussing and talking [censored] about me and then started the burning stuff. I asked S6 if he was ok and he said no. I just repeated what I said last time that we love him very much and when mommy and daddy fight it doesn’t have anything to do with him. That his mommy was just angry. Then watched some of the movie we have been watching before bed hung out until he went to sleep.
W got home around 9:30, didn’t say a word and went in to bathroom for 15-20 minutes. When she came out she was in a great mood and came over and told S6 goodnight. The rest of the evening has been uneventful so far, but she is acting like nothing happened with S18 too. Something feels off, she normally would talk [censored] to me. I’ll be leaving house early tomorrow to ensure I don’t get roped into something, and reaching out to a L for some guidance. She’s mentioned Emotional Abuse.
Sorry for the long post, want to reference for my journal later.
