FM, remember right now you cannot believe a word she says, and only half of what she does. This is why MC doesn't work, because she is going to say what is convenient, not honest. Even in (and maybe especially in) MC. MC can work with two committed, actively involved in working on the marriage spouses. When one spouse has 1 foot out the door it is a complete waste of time and the WAS will use it for their own devices.
Is she 4 months clean from alcohol and drugs? Maybe. Maybe not. Certainly don't put your eggs in that basket based on her words (see above).
FM, how is your GAL activities going? Are you staying busy? Why not stop MC and start IC? Remember this is a time to be working on yourself and trying to become the best version of yourself that you can be! Don't squander that opportunity.
Please read up on detachment. It really is the goal you should be striving for at the moment. Her crazy is just that, her crazy. When you are feeling good about things because she is calm, and anxious when she is upset then you need to work on that detachment. Once you start becoming detached it will be shocking to you how clear thinking you start to become.
Did you read the initial welcome threads that the mods provide? All of them? I would make sure to read them all multiple times. There is gold in those links! Also I don't if you have read DB or DR yet, but that should be your biggest next step. Get one of them (preferably DR) and make sure to read it at least twice and try to absorb all of what MWD says.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
