-I ran into an old classmate I haven't seen in many years. She was walking with her husband, pushing a stroller. She introduced me to her baby. It made me sad. H and I were making concrete plans about having children just before BD.
-I am still young, there's plenty of time for me to have children. Right? Do I even really want children.
-I never thought I wanted children until I fell in love with H.
-Was I really prepared to have a family and settle down in Country B? Would I have been okay with narrowing down my career possibilities to that one place?
-Actually, Country B is a good place to be for someone with my specialization. Ironically, I might end up there in the near future for professional reasons.
-I feel lost. I don't feel like I have a home.
I'm going through a bit of an identity crisis myself.
On a lighter note, this experience had strengthened my friendships. My friends are awesome. I am so grateful for them.
