Congratulations on your goal! I'm sure you were very proud of all that you have accomplished. All that matters is how you look and feel about yourself.
Enjoy your Christmas parties. Who knows? You just might meet someone interesting at one of them.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.