The truth is, my heart is shattered into a million pieces and I had just refused to accept this is as truly the last and only chance I have in possibly saving the relationship with the woman I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with.
It has been really hard for me.
Like I said, I know I need to do better.
I know man. It's awful. Incredibly difficult.
You can't change the encounter now, it's in the past - pick yourself up and do better going forward.
You WILL get through this and you WILL be alright - no matter which way it goes.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
