Well, I have decided to end it with the hockey player. I haven’t done it yet, but will later.

I have spoken to him multiple times with the intentions to end it, he comes up with promises that keep me on the hook , but doesn’t deliver.

I’m sad about it, but I promised myself when it feels more bad than good, I’ll end it. I’m not getting anything out of this, accept false hope.

I keep repeating the mantra if they wanted to would.