Feeling especially down this am. Tired of this sh!t. Gotta refocus.
The emotional rollercoaster is real. I'd have days where I felt on top of the world. Next day I felt like the crud at the bottom of the swamp. The key is staying busy and GAL. Always be doing. Idle hands are the devil's playground.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
Feeling especially down this am. Tired of this sh!t. Gotta refocus.
The emotional rollercoaster is real. I'd have days where I felt on top of the world. Next day I felt like the crud at the bottom of the swamp. The key is staying busy and GAL. Always be doing. Idle hands are the devil's playground.
Yeah, it's always when I'm at work that things go south. I'm busy but am basically alone most days except for the first and last 45 minutes. My mind starts wandering and I have to reel it back in.
Feeling especially down this am. Tired of this sh!t. Gotta refocus.
The emotional rollercoaster is real. I'd have days where I felt on top of the world. Next day I felt like the crud at the bottom of the swamp. The key is staying busy and GAL. Always be doing. Idle hands are the devil's playground.
Yeah, it's always when I'm at work that things go south. I'm busy but am basically alone most days except for the first and last 45 minutes. My mind starts wandering and I have to reel it back in.
I can relate. When I was in my situation I would be fine but as soon as I had a couple of free moments at work I'd start spiraling. You have to try to stay occupied. Easier said than done, unfortunately.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
Feeling especially down this am. Tired of this sh!t. Gotta refocus.
Remember what I told you just yesterday...
Originally Posted by BL42
Great post. Sounds like it's starting to click with you. I completely agree with doubling down. 6 days isn't much in the scheme of things. There will be ups and downs...make sure you commit for the long haul.
Originally Posted by SteveLW
The emotional rollercoaster is real. I'd have days where I felt on top of the world. Next day I felt like the crud at the bottom of the swamp. The key is staying busy and GAL. Always be doing. Idle hands are the devil's playground.
SteveLW is right about the rollercoaster. The key is to 1) smooth out the ups and downs so the swings aren't as dramatic, and 2) make sure the overall trend is upward.
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21
Mike - use this time to really think about what your core values are - the values that mean the most to you, that define you. When I did that it became really clear what did and didn't fit in my world. It will help, I promise.
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
Mike - use this time to really think about what your core values are - the values that mean the most to you, that define you. When I did that it became really clear what did and didn't fit in my world. It will help, I promise.
I thought I had done that. My big issue now, I think, is being stuck in limbo. I understand she is having a hard time with whatever is going on in her head. I guess I'm not doing a good job of detaching. I get frustrated thinking she is still deciding between me and the OM. I sometimes think she will never to a point of wanting to reconcile without leaving again and seeing what it will be like without me. I think if she leaves again, I will be done. Seems like a no-win situation. I know I need to just keep on trucking like I have been the last week or so, guess I just needed to vent.
