Interesting. What do you normally see in that regard of WAW?
I again went through all our texts these past two months since the blow up.
I see someone that has seen and acknowledged my changes for the better but her walls aren't coming down. Someone really struggling on what she actually wants. Some that loves me but has affirmed that love and resentment aren't mutually exclusive and can love me and not appreciate how she feels she has been treated for however long. Thinks I have done a 180 but ultimately hasn't changed her mind. Overwhelmed with pressure and tapped out emotionally until earlier this week of the "I'm done"with the relationship".
Since getting on here, obviously only since really Wednesday. I've been polite, I don't ask any questions unless she talks to me, no more "I love you goodnight", etc. Focusing on me and my daughter.
I didn't even let going to her families house this weekend be a question of whether or not I would attend. Daughter asked (in the presence of both of us what time we were leaving), and I said WE were leaving at X time. Internally thinking that the new/changed me would never not be where his family is during a Thanksgiving celebration and despite the tension between me and W, I'm going to focus on being the best me I can.
