Your whole life as you knew it has been ripped open....
You will grieve it ,and you will recover, then grieve it again, and recover again....
You are perfectly normal in that regard, actually if you didn't, then I would worry about you....
It's also a great catalyst for growth Mike....
When reading here...try not to get caught up in OPS...(Other People's Schidt). Too often I've seen people making a move that they don't have to make because they are acting on what they have read on another thread, and applying it on their own stuff...
Every sitch is the same, yet entirely different.....
Focus on today, and how far you've come, not down the road.