So, here we are again in the holiday season. I feel the SAD kicking in. A big part is the lack of family and sharing my kid. I’m working Christmas and I was asked to work Christmas Eve and I said yes. I just have no one to be with. D will be with her dad. I do have friends, but no one really knows or asks if I’ll be alone. I think it’s often assumed around the holidays that people have someone . So by working, I basically give myself an excuse to be alone. Pathetic, I know. Every year I pray it will be different, but it never is. Well, one year it was. And it was really nice. I was on cloud 9. It’s hard being an only child with no spouse and not much family. It is what it is I guess. The holidays will come and go.
Work is ok. I’m awful, but my new counterpart drives me nuts. She means well, but she always has something to prove, everything turns into a story about herself and she is constantly talking over people. I just sit quietly. I am having dinner tonight with my friend,the social worker I worked with for years and we grew super close. I can’t wait to catch up.
House problems abound. Got mice, can’t take it, finally hired someone. He was the kindest guy. His 13 year old son works with him . They came last night and planted the bait. Next is getting a new door I had to kick in for D’s room.
I also don’t know if my situation with hockey guy is working for me. Sometimes it feels good, sometimes it doesn’t . Don’t need to make any decisions now though.
