When you're going through a situation like this, it's natural to feel very isolated and alone. Part of the value of reading others' stories here is the recognition you're not the only one going through this that others have experienced it as well and gotten through it and are thriving; you will be alright no matter what happens with your marriage.
And I agree...you do seem strong relative to most Newbies.
Thank you for saying that. I wish I could get to a point where I felt strong. I have had moments where I feel strong and resolute in putting an end to crap that she is/was doing and the minute I see her face and even a hint of hurt in her eyes I'm done. Weak.