Yes, we all walk/walked a similar path. Grief - denial, anger, bargaining, depression, & acceptance - letting go, withdrawal, indifference, etc; it’s quite a bog to work through. Many stages, with different overlaps, different orders, for each person. Yet generally a similar path.
We’ve all felt weak laying alone thinking about what our spouse could be doing. As you’ve seen, you’re not alone, and you will get through it.
Something I read long ago, God never places more upon your shoulders than you can handle. I was like lots of folks and prayed for strength to make it though this. And it was answered. Our answers are usually not how we want them, rather how we need them. Strength is gain by enduring and working through our burden.
It’s not really about the destination, it’s the journey. It’s working and walking through that bog.
Life is a journey, and at times the path gets pretty rough. Have faith, it will smooth out.
Stay strong. Focus on you. And keep moving forward.
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Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.