I'm on page 4 of the second thread by May. It's scary how similar our stories are. Some of the things she posts sounds like the exact convo's wife and I have had. Something she said that struck a chord with me was to the effect of "I don't feel strong, if I was strong I would kick him to the curb and move on". I say that every time my counselor tells how strong I'm being and that she can't believe I've dealt with this so well. During one of our sessions she jokingly told me I should look into becoming a counselor after I retire. The thing is, I know what to do but struggle to actually do so. It really doesn't feel like I'm strong at all, I feel mostly like a weak man who is letting my wife manipulate me. All those nights I was home alone lying awake thinking about her being with him were so hard. I endured it until I couldn't, but somehow I felt like a wimp for letting it continue. I guess reading May's story stirred up some emotions and I needed to express them a little. Thanks.
