I'm so sorry, Wolf--it must feel awful to have frightened your baby and had your partner record you to protect herself. The big question is, was this enough to nudge you toward IC? What are you going to do this week and the following weeks to better manage conflict (addressing differences in a productive way) and avoid parenting your equals? How are you going to carve out time to make that a priority like the gym, and who's going to keep you accountable?