You have obviously gotten some excellent advice. And what stood out at me the most was what UR said:
Just let things be for a while. Trying to figure out why the way things are isn’t always necessary. Especially if it’s something we can’t change , even if we know the why. I also understand that you feel like you can declutter your thoughts if you figure things out and can pack them away. But it’s OK to leave things mentally “unsolved” I think the reason why I feel lighter these days is because I am sitting in the present and not looking for the why’s so much.
You have gone through a lot of loss lately and it’s a lot to unpack. I know family dynamics can be complicated. Especially at the time of a big loss. And I think the best thing for you, might be doing what the best thing for you is. Make sense ?
I was thinking after I read this....
You met my Father, and everyone in these dynamics.... : )
He liked y'all a lot...
Genuine, was the word that he used...
And even if I'm not ready to take on the process with him just yet....
I think I need to be genuine with everything....just like he would have wanted....
