Mach, I don’t have much to offer. My story is nothing like yours. I thing like many. I married a glaring red flag which I ignored due to my life circumstances. Married at 24, kid via IVF at 27, 6 months later he left me for his affair partner with whom he is married to this day.
I am now 42, daughter is 15, he’s cheating on this wife now.

But I guess if anything can be taken from my sitch is that it is survivable. I wished I was dead, but knew I couldn’t be because I had a baby who needed me. And she’s an amazing kid and our R is super strong. I love her more than life itself. My life has been a struggle and nothing has ever come without hard work, struggle and hustle.

But in the last 15 years I changed my jobs multiple times to accommodate my daughter. I furthered my education. I recently took a promotion which is HARD work. I mean HARD work. And I’m doing well although I just want to just lay down and sleep most days.

My love life never thrived. And I’m Ok with that. When I look at all I did accomplish, I’m Ok with failing at my love life and succeeding at my friendships, career, and most importantly, parenthood. Raising a child nearly single handedly since birth without really having any family help, or a mother myself and her being a fantastic human being is bigger than accomplishing any romantic relationship. We can’t be great at everything, right ?

My new job is going well despite it being very challenging and sometimes mentally exhausting. My counterpart started, and while she is a good person, she drives me a little nuts. She means well, but she’s exhausting. Right now everything is still in my hands because she doesn’t have the access she needs . Good news? I have had multiple employees tell me that my support has made them want to come to work, even though we are short handed and it’s been a challenge. I’m still called from my old job to solve issues. I also picked up some hours from my other job on the nights and weekend. Easy money. However, I’m working in person this weekend. I’ll be on 12 days in a row of work.

Tonight was a great night at a VERY high end restaurant for a small
Marketing dinner. However; this week was a rough week, because I went up on my dose of my medication and I’ve been sick all week. Bad vertigo and exhaustion. My kid who never worries about me said “ you better go to the doctor, you aren’t yourself “ she knows I’m usually a hustler and bundle of energy. And all I wanted to do was sleep. I’m feeling better finally today. I haven’t been to the gym since Saturday. But we had an “Olympics” fundraiser which was so much fun. I learned I’m actually pretty in shape. I came in second for the most sit-ups in a minute, typing the 23 year old man who was killing every single category. I also came in second for woman’s bench press. However, I might be the slowest sprinter , lol. Our team came in 3 out of 4, but personally,
I did pretty darn good! Out did the young skinny chicks too .

I’m literally all peopled out. Looking forward to tomorrow night. Just me. Gonna watch the hockey game with my dog and I couldn’t be more excited