Your posts lately portray a deep sense of sadness. That's completely natural and common for people here, but to LH's point it's been many years now so it's important you get yourself unstuck. Make an action plan on what you're going to do to improve yourself - literally write it down. I also get the sense you spend a lot of time alone, so get busy and social. GAL is your lifeline right now. Figure out what you like to do and meet some guys you can hang out with. You have many years ahead of you, and life can be good...make them count!
Yep, I am very sad. I am already talking to friends to get out with them at functions, BBQs and starting the Church when I get back. I am very sad that I didnt have the tools I gained here to at least implement into recovering my marriage to her.. I had no one to help. Literally, just me and no insight where to go.. Thats the real sad part.
