Mach1, Thnx for the insight.. I know I have wasted a few years.. My own fault, and lack of guidance from anyone really. When she moved out she took my youngest with her.. Youngest would not have gone if it werent for my oldest living here. Friction amongst the kids, pretty normal. And Momma offered freedom. Now both are out, and we have bonded very well in the past few years. So, I gained much closer relationships with the girls.. I am making strides in moving forward, more mental then anything. I am accepting things. I know darn well she is far ahead and gone in the relationship she left. Gone, way down the road. I never wanted to see it, but I have.. I have always been slow to grasp the obvious, mostly due to being engrossed in job, travel etc. Its easy for friends that I do have to say what they recommend, but its ultimately up to me to get it. I am getting it, trust me.. My GAL may not be the norm, like hobbies, going out, dating. I spend time with kids, grand kids, and my big hobbie are cars, working on them..I have been doing allot of that.. Its difficult when I dont get allot of daily push, guidance.. I am writing allot of guidance I read here, for example. And I review it, try to implement it as much as possible. But, you are right, I have wasted many years waiting. She has stated many times over the years I am leaps and bounds a better person. BUT, she says it will make my new family or wife and happy person. Thats key. She doesnt want me back, she is just saying nice things, noticed, to be positive and nice.
