Re: Spa Guy - casual texting conversations continue, mostly about films and music. But I had a revelation last week while on a long car drive to deliver something to a sick son (bad asthma). I realized that part of why I am ambivalent about the idea of seeing Spa Guy again, is that if I had to choose between the friendship, and the booty call, I'd rather keep the friendship. Not that I would necessarily have to choose, but since it's still a little unclear what led to him ghosting me last time, I'd want to make sure that visiting him wouldn't lead to that again. Not something I have to decide right now, since that isn't on the table yet anyway.
Re: relationships in general - while CMM wasn't my perfect match in many ways, he adored me and took care of me in ways I have never had in a relationship before. Guess what? It's really nice being in a relationship with someone who puts in as much as you do. (He made me lunches for work, let me use his Star Wars lunchbox, and wrote both of our names inside. Nerdy sweetness.) I think I will definitely be looking for that in any future (real) relationship. (I don't consider Spa Guy a "real" relationship in that he's a known Love Avoidant who told me up front he doesn't DO relationships so my expectations for him are zero in that regard. It's actually part of why I like him, he was at least self-aware and up front about that so my feelings never got hurt. )
Nerdy sweetness.) I think I will definitely be looking for that in any future (real) relationship. (I don't consider Spa Guy a "real" relationship in that he's a known Love Avoidant who told me up front he doesn't DO relationships so my expectations for him are zero in that regard. It's actually part of why I like him, he was at least self-aware and up front about that so my feelings never got hurt. )
